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Saturday, October 12, 2013

We Create Our Own Demons

We create our own demons. Ironman 3, Robert Downey, Jr.

This quote got to me. Not to mention, the movie itself did, too. Ironman, 3. It didn’t help that I’ve been doing a lot of self reflection about … well … my life in general. The past. The present. The future.

What gets me about my life … is that it seems that certain scenes play over from the past but with a different flavor, and sometimes on steroids. Decisions I made thirty years ago … like marrying a drug addict-but I had no clue at the time. But I did make three decisions to have daughters with him when I knew what he was, hoping for the best, of course … that some how life would become magically delicious. But it never did.

Oh and then, I married again. The bags under hubby number 2 eyes foretold tale tell signs of an alcoholic. I should have listened to my little voice on that one. But of course, I ignored it. Six years and two more daughters later, he left us in the middle of the night so he could have years of fun without us.

My do we create our own demons. Never in my life did I ever expect any of my daughters to follow in either of their fathers’ footsteps. Nor did I ever think any of my grandbabies would ever be in peril. And if they were, never did I ever think for one second that my hands would be tied.

Anyway, I really suggest y’ll watch the movie Ironman III. It’s action packed and full of meaningful lines that will make you think.

Hope everyone has been well.

Hugs and chocolate,

Shelly

28 comments:

  1. I saw Iron Man III. He certainly did create his own demons. It was an exciting movie. I hope things go well for you.

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    1. It was definitely a good movie. And thank you for your well wishes.

      Hugs and chocolate,
      Shelly

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  2. There's no point in blaming yourself for the past - it's doen and over. it wasn't your fault and you've still got the rest of your life. Live it and love it.

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    1. I know. It's done and over. But its weird how the past can rear its ugly head into the present.

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  3. Someone once suggested I turn my problems over to God.While I still have problems, my reaction has changed and so it doesn't seem like they bother me. Hugs to you.

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    1. I pray everyday. Sometimes in the middle of the night I'm awaken by a prayer for the baby. It comes from deep within.

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  4. HI Shelly,

    Situations within our environment can be beyond our control. What I do when I'm impacted in ways that have caused me trauma is try and turn a negative into something positive. A heck of a challenge and I wish you the very best.

    I do know that your verbalisation can be most powerful therapy.

    In peace,

    Gary

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    1. You are a wise man, Gary.

      Chocolate hugs to you!

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  5. It's odd how the innocent ones have to suffer the consequences because of someone else's bad life/short-falls/ stupidity, etc. I've often wondered why those of us who have done nothing wrong often have to carry the weight of the world upon our shoulders, and look after others who it affects, and pick up the pieces. Do we become stronger because of it? Hell, yes. No one can figure out why the world is so unbalanced in every way, but it is.

    Chocolate hugs, Shelly. I hope you had a good rest.

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    1. I had a wonderful rest. I was afraid to pick up my phone messages when I got back.

      Hugs back to you. Did you see I finally wrote the book review on Spell of the Black Unicorn?

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  6. Shelly, sorry you have to watch the same scenario play out again. Just take care of Glowstick and the others to the best of your ability.

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    1. They do say history repeats itself.

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  7. I've seen Iron Man 3--several times. In fact, we just bought the Blu-Ray.

    Shelly, our troubles are not ALWAYS of our own making. Have you ever read When the Enemy Strikes by Charles F. Stanley?

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    1. No. I've never read that book. I will have to put that one on my TBR list.

      Loved Ironman 3. Love Robert Downey, Jr.

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  8. All you can do is the right thing for the innocent parties involved. It's terrible what you've been going through. I hope it gets better soon.

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    1. If only the two different divisions could agree as to where the baby NEEDS to be.

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  9. My x was a sociopath in the beginning he hid it well and fooled me but later on it came roaring out. My children and I have paid a huge price and still are.
    Everyday that is "normal" quiet and just boring is good for us.
    I wish you well and hope you can find some way to workout the problems. What is the saying about knowing when to hold them and when to fold.
    Like William said you do the right thing for the innocent ones. And realize you can't help or fix everything.

    Take care.
    cheers, parsnip

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    1. I love boring and predictable. In my younger years that didn't exist. And when I though my life had calmed down some, it all started up again.

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  10. I'm sorry that you've been working non-stop to take care of your family. Your little grandson is in good hands, and your family is very lucky to have you. I also hope that things get better soon.

    Julie

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  11. Addiction is a tricky thing, isn't it? Never to be underestimated. But you cant blame yourself either--most of us choose to see the good in people. And there'll always be things we wish we would've picked up on. Hindsight is always 20/20, right?
    All the best for you and your family, Shelly! ((hugs))

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    1. It is tricky terrible. I really don't get it since personally I would never choose a drug or alcohol to deal with life's ups and downs.

      Thank you for your well wishes.

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  12. Shelly, I'm sorry you're going through such a rough time. I think we all look at past choices and get angry with ourselves but I agree with Pk, you can't blame yourself for choosing to see the good in people. Take care and I'm sending you many hugs and good wishes!

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  13. Wow it sounds like a tough time right now, as well as in the past. I'll be thinking of you and I pray God gives you the strength to make the hard decisions and to do the best you can despite the obstacles in your way.
    Tina @ Life is Good

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    1. Thank you, Tina. Prayers are good.

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  14. I'm sorry to read you are going through some tough times. We all make mistakes and it's hard to forgive ourselves, but remember that each one needs to go through its own stuff in order to grow and learn. As much as you want to make life perfect for your lived ones, you simply can't and you shouldn't blame yourself for it. Do the best you can and trust that God will help them find their way.

    Hugs and prayers.

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